how to get rid of this restlessness within me? the urge to drop everything and run away?

living a day by a day, not the way i want my life to be, but the way it somehow turns out. people say things will be fine in the end, exams one month away, will this hold true?

hoping to withdraw from hall by end of oct, very suicidal hor? haha but home is where i feel most at ease.

not thinking of committing suicide, but death seems a pleasant end, though the pain one leaves behind in the hearts of those loved ones will always linger.. reading a book "the lovely bones" by alice sebold.

i'm a nervous wreck when it comes to exams, and i'm unprepared, or under-prepared. feel f***ed up. just do. pent up anger. no place to vent. no way to hide.

in sleep i find solace. nitez